January 2010
cant wait
i want next year to start. i hate this time around semester mainly cause its deceiving. it makes it feel like things are starting fresh, but the only change is that i have chaldu now for health instead of hale for business.
i like to set a goal for myself, improve myself in some way every single school year. and i always have a feeling that i cant really work toward a goal unless i am starting...
its raining today.
and i am content. suffering from a cold and possible stress, but content. =]
tossing and turning
i woke up today with all my covers on the floor. literally, i was shivering. and my mom said she found my hair shed on my pillow. is it stress? i pretty much cracking for reasons i dont even know.
i think what i need is something to look forward to. a light at the end of the tunnel. like maybe someone in the world to think im important, more than another face (like a girl maybe?). i pretty much...
if the sidewalk ends
yep just as i expected. things are so degrading.
WOW. my tumblr is just so depressing. and so are other people’s blogs. its a peculiar thing actually. i just get reminded of how much life isnt that great and i shouldnt be clinging too much to it.
i surprise myself a lot when i can smile at school and laugh and crack jokes and crap.
i walked with ali to Dairy Queen today and we had this...
chaos
funny word. i had a backpack with that brand and as a kid i thought it was pronounced cha-ohs. what a weirdo i was.
but thats whats kind of defining my day right now. so much confusion happens in one day just after school (this is putting aside all the school crap).. like:
1) facebook
2) AIM
3) my mom who thinks i hate her
4) my dad whose going along with my mom
5) people who need help with...
2010
those four numbers mean so much. people use it as an excuse for new beginnings.
i really wish i could too. but i dont know what to begin anew. and anyways, nothing feels like its changed—except for now i see a bigger number and im 2 numbers away from 2012, when things will change.
Reblog if you are completely dreading school...
steffiiiii:
glitter-n-dope:
(via fuckyeahprettygirls)
all
man i talked to a friend of mine…and i’ve never realized how good i’ve got it.
i have great loving parents who care about me and school sucks but not that much and i have Christian family and im surrounded by kindhearted people. but i still complain.
i guess i never realized that people do try to commit suicide, people do hate life, and people do suffer, much more than me. and...
wait up!
the previous post isn’t supposed to be depressing. im generally happy, i promise.
and about the girl, this isn’t new. same person for a while. just i’ve kept quiet. so yea.
new directions
im going to try to utilize this again.
but i dont want to spill out my guts on a website. because a website can’t talk back, and it doesnt give me advice, just stalkers.
dramatic shift here i know. its january 2, 2010. time just flies.
and my secret: i like carl’s jr. commercials, esp the ones with kim kardashian.
just kidding. but they are entertaining.
anyways…something...